Gathatoulie

And of these shall I speak to those eager, That quality of wisdom that all the wise wish And call creative qualities And good creation of the mind The all-powerful truth Truly and that more & better ways are discovered Towards perfection --Zarathustra.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

88 (retrospective)

I worked on installing Sphinx (http://www.sphinxsearch.com),
Monster Mountain (http://code.google.com/p/mmtn/),
LaTeXML (http://dlmf.nist.gov/LaTeXML/) and a little bit
on Hunchentoot (http://weitz.de/hunchentoot/).

So far, I learned that my old Monster Mountain "Multi-User
Semantic Network" code works as I had left it -- but there
will be a lot of hacking left to do. Sphinx installed, but
there will be some configuring to do. I did get
LaTeXML working as evidenced by this webpage:
http://metameso.org/~joe/vacuous2.html
Hunchentoot will have to wait until tomorrow or later.

I also did a quick scan through the PlanetMath corpus;
an initial survey of the way users have made their
bibliographies.

Vis a vis search: I was musing about the possibility of
storing each word that's input in any form in a separate
record, then putting in links to the places where the
words appear. That would be a lot of words and links;
I should ask Aaron Krowne about this.

More thoughts about organizations: building an organization
that develops policy is a great idea, but the policy's
going to need to go somewhere (we need a meta-policy
that isn't just talk).

contemporary ills treated with medicina de amor?

We are becoming ++infantile into older ages.
Might as well monetize it for myself.
The best sort of investments, are the ones intimately
tied into society continuing. Because if it doesn't continue,
all the investments are worthless. -- TKT

QUESTION: As a society, are we understanding
human nature better, so as to be better able to address
the concerns and issues one faces as a human via
the agency of persons in various expert-knowledge
domains, or are we suffering from certain increasing
agonies that are particular to the modern age, included,
but not limited to, alienation brought about by
hyperspecialization? -- Olli and Joe

ANSWER: (1) "If the three ages of the concept are
the encyclopedia, pedagogy, and commercial
professional training, only the second can save
us from falling from the heights of the first into
the disaster of the third -- an absolute disaster
for thought, whatever its benefits may be, of
course, from the viewpoint of universal
capitalism." -- Deleuze and Guattari, "What
is Philosophy?"

(2) Que tan mal me porte mi corazón
que me tiene tanto rencor
y me ve muriendo por culpa de tu amor.
[...]
Donde vayas mi amor
te guiaré porque no guardo rencor
en mi corazón en mi corazón.
-- Raulin Rodriguez, "Medicina de Amor"

(3) You know that little clock, the one on your
VCR, the one that's always blinking twelve
noon 'cause you never figured out how to get
in there and change it?"
-- Laurie Anderson, "Same Time Tomorrow"

THE QUESTION AGAIN?:

I suspect that I too am caught in tight loops,
for one thing, the loop that undermines my
own best efforts at "self-salvation", "self-liberation",
or "escape artistry". But these loops feed
back across the entire field of my experience.
It's like any sickness: the symptoms are
evidence of the body fighting the malady.

I think the question doesn't necessarily have
a whole lot to do with society. Yes, society
exists, but society is made up of individuals,
individual relationships, and relationships
between relationships. (This reductive
model that turns fields of experience
into pairwise relationships, or, in other
words, which narrates, would, of course,
be a problem worse than any cure if
we did not also consider maps that
go in the opposite direction, from
narration/language to experience,
e.g. "spells".) More to the point, "society"
(such as "the society of women") is
experienced in the body, or even
more to the point, by creative
subjectivities who are inclined to
make more of it than what they found
there in the first place.

And yet, there's no doubt that there is
something called human knowledge,
and folks can draw on it within and
even formatively-for their experiences.
Introducing the whipping boy of
"intellectuals", "specialists", "experts",
or even "celebrities" seems likely to
go along with the fancy psychological
move of introjection -- "a process wherein
the subject replicates in itself behaviors,
attributes or other fragments of the
surrounding world, especially of other
subjects" -- in other words, it seems
to be a move that will result in
self-castigation, or blaming oneself
for trying to solve the problem,
especially trying to solve the problem
by thinking about it.

It seems that among the various
imperatives (bodily, psychic, and
uncanny) the bodily is most likely
to dominate the others, to shove
them around, as it were. "Investing
in society" probably means finding
ways to build psychic and uncanny
counter-balances to the imperious
body. This does indeed seem
to imply "generating economic
traction/leverage" as one of several
approaches (it's important that
you said "monetize it FOR MYSELF"),
but it also seems like there are
other ways to think about things.

Ultimately, since we mostly create or
are complicit in, implicated in, or
even in some sense redeemed
by, the creation of our problems --
after all, that's what it means to be
"adults" -- we should look carefully
at the value of having, and maintaining,
problems.

This is the question, restated:
how are problems to be valued?

ACCORDINGLY, in order to establish
a process whereby we can effectively
answer this question:

Whether we see things as getting
better or worse in society or in
our lives, whether we harbor resentment
or do not harbor resentment, and
however we go about dealing with
them once we've sort of kind of
figured out what they are, we should
be vigilant about learning how our
problems are valued, by ourselves, by
others, by society; whether positively,
negatively, or from some other range
of values altogether ("Lady Sings
the Blues")....

<fade out to Tori Amos' cover of
"Strange Fruit">
http://beemp3.com/download.php?file=166877&song=Strange+Fruit

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

89 (retrospective)

Today I didn't opt to write a blog entry...
I've been having annoying back pain about
as bad as I've ever had. Luckily I also had
a health coaching session with my Aunt,
and developed a strategy that should
improve the back pain. It seems like I'm
on my way to having a more balanced existence:
which I realized recently is the source of most
of the drama in my life is the need for balance,
and intense efforts at self-communication regarding
the same.

I updated the publicly accessible files at
http://www.metameso.org/ and revised the
PDF version of my plan to reflect the 3-month
timeline I'm on. I think that the rest of the week
will go pretty well if I put forth a more consistent
effort.

To be fair, I did have an interesting
conversation about organizational principles and
peer-production cultures; all of which seems to
have matured in my life while I wasn't looking.

Monday, March 9, 2009

90

I cut up the plan at http://metameso.org/files/plan.pdf and rearranged
it so that it
would make sense on a 3-month schedule.

The overview is:

THEMATIC: The plan is settled and even nicely arranged. Now
just run it.

ONGOING: Do creative writing as a way to push the system forward
while maintaining full emotional investment in the project.

THEMATIC 2: What's this about, philosophically? I should be able
to say something to the public about it right now. In short, it's
about metamesology and empowerment.

MONTH 1: Getting everything set, goals stated, initial contacts.

MONTH 2: Major implementation push (now that my brain has
everything all nicely loaded up). What am I really going to be
able to do about all the things I wanted to do something about?
Be more public now that I can share the implementation process.

MONTH 3: Review and check work: did I achieve what I set out to
achieve? If it seems suitable, look at the browser within a browser"
as a key app. Where there are still loose ends, what can I say for
posterity? Do a final publicity run.

Since I already made a syllabus for March, I wonder how well
the overview and the cut-up plan matches what I said in that
syllabus. This week one of the things I'm going to focus on
is revisiting the plan -- that's well-underway, obviously. The
other project is to work on loading peripherals into my server,
which will help with getting things loaded into my mind too.

So that's the plan for today and this week. For future days,
also expect updates on what my creative writing experiments
are turning into, too.

Yesterday I just tried some random permutations of phrases:

(defun argument ()
(interactive)
(let ((content ...))
(nth (random (length content)) content)))

Since the phrases are interesting, random selections of
them are also interesting. However, I'm keen on the idea
of working with the content in a more structured way;
the new peripherals will help with that...

Sunday, March 8, 2009

91

Between the idea of having a schedule (my sister works 9-to-5)
and having a syllabus (my gf has weekly task lists), it seems I
can hardly go wrong! I broke the rest of the month up into weekwise
portions and then created 4x6 cards with task lists for each week.
Will repeat at the start of next month. Now I gotta go look at
the first list to see what's "on" for today!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

92

92 days left on my lease
92 days left in which to listen and learn to listen to myself.
92 days left which could end in celebration
92 days in which I have to earn my keep
92 days in which I can go for a walk
92 days that can end in sleep.

Right now I'm feeling somewhat fatigued, recovering from
or just suffering from, a cold. I feel like doing work amounts
to reaching "out of" something sluggish; but I also feel,
having had a nice cup of tea, a sense of excitement, too,
and excitement isn't sluggish, so there is something there
to reach to.

I wonder about setting up a schedule, but I also think that
when I'm sick probably isn't the time. I can go out, though,
and try to shake myself up some.

I'm somewhat proud of my "writing the contours of my life",
but I know that a mere collection of snippets isn't adequate
to such writing. Listening to this lecture by
Zizek makes me think that writing a mere collection of
snippets is cynical:
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2530392910118230001
and that going beyond it towards something more special
is a much better idea.

I like the idea of working despite being zoned out.
Working on PlanetMath stuff could be fun to do in
this modality, even. I do want to get these little
essays on "transparency" finished up and circulated
soon -- so I can go on to other more "routine"
tasks. As for Arxana tasks - it's interesting because
my energy doesn't want to conform to either
setting up a good programming environment under
OS X or installing Linux, even though these both
seem like reasonable activities. I was reflecting
this morning that using the server provides me
with everything I need in terms of basics for Lisp,
and it is a good motivating place to do things like
work on an HTML presentation of some of the
work -- and besides, a lot of the programming I
want to do will be Emacs, so I don't need to upload
new Lisp code at every juncture. It makes me a
little nervous, thinking about doing programming
over the connection, but I think that's irrational,
and it would save me the trouble of installing
Linux (until later -- I should probably do that
soon) or figuring out how to make the program
work on this OS X (which again seems worth
doing at some point).

I have yet to look at the printouts of my "plan" --
maybe that would be a good place to start
the next phase.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

arxana/metacommons

As some of you may remember, http://metacommons.org is already
taken by some offshoot or member of the "Media Experience Trade
Association". As described at http://metacommons.org/about,

"Media development projects are the purpose of Metacommons. A project
can be as simple as a widget or control, or as complex as an entire media
navigation system. Or maybe it's an just an algorithm. If you created something
to aide the design of digital media, and you think it would be useful
to somebody
else in the field, then it would probably make a good project."

This happens to match up with some of our thoughts -- but clearly (and
critically) they mean something quite different by the prefix "meta"! So
in the end, this "metacommons" isn't much of a match at all.

This suggests the need to look for a new name for the "metacommons
project" -- which is OK with me, because, names aside, I wanted to generalize
to "meta-resource-management". Metacommons is snappier, but the notion
behind this generalization is that the project should feel free,
wikilinks style, to
talk about the way "non-common" resources are being managed. I actually
think that the term "common" is somewhat too vague, since any resource
(e.g. Mount Rushmore) has a complicated resource management scheme
attached to it, so complicated as to go render the blunt instrument
"common" almost completely useless! We could try to rescue the term, but
my sense is that it only weighs things down.

As for whether "resource management" is any better, I'm not sure:
the take-away point is that the *term* is less important than the
*mechanism* that the term describes.

Which brings me to the other part of the subject line.

Arxana development has been slowed down for the last couple of
weeks because I've been putting in extra time at my job -- and
I tend to come off of work anything but fresh. In my typical
schedule, I usually take those "tired days" to bop around town,
reading books, or talking to friends, or poking around on the
internet -- and instead of struggling against these things, I'm
happy to think of them as my version of "well-roundedness" and
just enjoy them.

By contrast, the current augmented schedule has made me
feel like an invalid. It underscores a point I've been thinking
about for years (as I *have* wondered about whether or not
I'm being as productive as I should be): I must find a way to
quit this job and work on "my stuff" full time!

But there are some subtle ambiguities to this point. With my
"typical schedule", I *am* able to work on my stuff full time,
or at least very close to it -- so maybe the job isn't the problem
at all!

Indeed, before the weeks of overtime hit, I felt I had gotten
my programming into a pretty nice place -- just a matter of
"finishing up a few details" before making a limited release
to people who I think will be into it. Of course, that takes
time, and here and there it seems to open up a new can
of worms... which can take more time (even though "early
and often" rattles around in the back of my mind as an ideal
that I "should" be adhering to better, there's still some room
for polishing).

More to the point, by the time this release is ready, I'll
actually begin to be able to "do things" with the software.
(At least, that's what I've been counting on.) And so, at
least in theory, will anyone else. Bueno.

I've been *looking forward* to this part of things for what
seems like ages -- even though I predict that making a
release won't change things that dramatically. I figure
I'll still be one of the only people working on the project,
for example. Still, if possible, it would be nice to have
some forecast that's more solid than that guess. Maybe
I won't know til it arrives.

Please forgive me for rambling.

What I am trying to get around to is -- I think it would be
interesting to start a new non-profit that would continue
to do Arxana development from my demo, and which
would serve the purposes outlined above for developing a
"meta-resource-management project". The functional
form of such an organization should of course include
personnel and money. We've learned some strategies
related to the money end of things at PlanetMath.org
(although some of them remain untested in that context,
and some of them may no longer apply in this one). I'm
emailing you guys about it now because whether or not
you'd want to form part of the personnel, you have a lot
more than just a clue about what I'm talking about -- so
I think you're in a good position to critique the proposal.
Which, of course, I haven't even given you, except in this
rather vague and personal narrative. I'd be happy to try
to write up something more solid to share with those who
are interested.

For now, I would like to solicit from you some QUESTIONS
you might like to see answered about these topics.

Currently, references include:

* http://planetx.cc.vt.edu/AsteroidMeta/metacommons
* http://planetx.cc.vt.edu/~jcorneli/arxana/arxana.pdf
* My April Fool's 2004 celebratory email that introduced
Hyperreal Enterprises as a fictional future business entity.

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